.......the people you love.....char!!!!!

it is said that no man is an island and indeed it is true.......we cant survive if we dont have anyone to talk to......have you watched the movie castaway by tom hanks??. in that movie he was stranded in an island after the crash of their delivery plane, he was working at FEDEX, and there he was all alone so he decided to have a volleyball as his companion, he made a face on it using his blood and impressively he coped in the place easily, have you imagined yourself like this??? well... imagine the worst.......anyway back to our topic, so all of us needs someone and theres our family, friends, special friend, and boyfriends. when we have an argument to those people in our life we feel... empty, not complete and theres someone saying inside you that i have to talk to him or her and that your day is not satisfying........well...now it is whats happening to me.. i have an enemy that is so important to me, i admit that its all my fault, but i am a kind of person that doesnt speak my emotions, so she was mad at me.....and now......i am here typing this......gathering some courage to talk to her.......wish luck......i wish that she would listen to me.....and that she and i would understand each other........

consequences

everyday we make history and it is done through our actions and in every actions there are consequences that came along with it. neglecting the consequences will lead you to a decision that will surely hurt others or yourself. i myself admit that i sometimes neglect the effects, but as far as im concerned..... i am doing what i feel is right. there are decision that is good and has a bad effect on you, you may see it as negative due to the bad effect it will cause you but if its right go with it!!!! fear is our greatest enemy in life, but having fear does'nt mean that you are weak, accepting fear is a sign that you are brave, you are not afraid of confronting the things you fear most.

as i go through my college life i discovered that i have fear in disappointment and failure and i got a lot of trouble because i never face my fears, however because of my helpful and passionate friends i got through with it and there is someone that helped me so much!! as in so much!!! i think i owe her why now i am still studying nursing, i am not saying she helped financially, she just helped on how to deal with people that i am afraid to.......the weakness is understandable but not facing until the time you die is a big fat lie.... it does seem very hard to do, i do know that we can do everything if we just have hope........

.......................new life...............

yessssss!!!!! the storm is gone!! now.........i feel like i'm floating with the clouds... :) i have nothing important to think of....well....i didn't mean like nothing as in nothing at all......

i'm all about studying right now....because last semester...i could say i wasn't a good student. all i did was go with friends, think of something fun, and eat everyday as in every hour of everyday that made me soooooo fat. i thought, i felt so down because everything is not going the way i wanted, but then with the power of our almighty god and with the help of good friends i realized that evertything was because of me!!!!! my stupidness, my idiotness, and my fear of disappointment motivated my actions that caused all that storm.

now i feel my life is a blank slate, it's like i'm starting from scratch, this is my chance to star anew, change everything and do everything right. i know that there will always be mistakes, but i know that in every dark cloud there's always a silver lining......hahahahaha.........

lastly, ill always remember you can benefit from everything..........

to all who will read this ( if theres anyone...):
think positive.........dont lose hope and life is all about hardships....and god will not give anything that you cant do.......you can do everything, just have HOPE......in every locked door theres always a way to open it........and we all need help.......

..................stress................

stress what is it???? some may define it as the stocked up problem...that is sooooooo hard to solve. for me its everything, stress is your surrounding, all of it is stress, it only depends on the life you have now. i have one friend, we have some kind of the same situation, for her stress is the tuition we pay every month, which is partly true. i also asked some of the staff in the school clinic and for them stress is in the head literally, "kaspa" or dandruff, she was laughing while she was saying it. For her the sign of stress is when her dandruff is starting to exist in her small head. different people have distinguishing view of stress but they agree on one thing and that is, it is soooooooo stressful. In my point of view stress is the load that will never leave my life forever, it will always be there, without it life would not be called life. With my situation right now, stress is making me sooooooo crazy that sometimes living seems useless, all is about how to solve this..........and that.......how to flatter her..............everything is such a mess!!! I dont' know when all of this will end........sometimes I wonder how did this adults of today survive a world with no mercy...........how I wish I am just like any other student with no responsibilities for other people............of all the value in life responsibilty is the worst...........however I know that God will always guide me...and one day I will be surprised that all has began and end...............

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hahay......life......

well... life is such a short word but it has so many meanings, its so complicated that you need to have much experience to overcome that challenges that life gave you. I am a college student and sometimes i think that i experienced the most in life, but i was wrong, its not even one point of what really is life. However I believe that even though a person is young you can't say that what that certain person experiences is not the real life, yes it is not of adults, but for teenagers like me, the situation i ma experiencing is on the level of life for teenagers. we are all first timers in life some things may happen again then it only means that life wants to teach you the learning you haven't experienced when you were encountering that certain situation. There was an instructor of mine, she told our class that life teaches us in two ways, in A HARD WAY OR IN A SOFT WAY, and she also told us that you can always learn in the soft way but its up to you if you'd accept it and go to the next level. As a conclusion all the situations that we face in our lives are all on the same level they just differ on the person facing that certain situation...........

My so............called friends!!!!!!

In terms of friends i have lots of them.....and most of them are crazy, not literally crazy, they're just different from normal and I love them. I have different sets of friends, I group them because they have different interest. I have my friends in class, clinic and old friends in high school. The group of friends that I'm always with is my class friends, they dominantly crazy........

My friends are like my anti-stressors, but sometimes they give me one. They sometimes complain why I'm not sharing like at least one fourth of my problems, but still they understand my secretiveness, and i love them for that.

i have one specific friend >Daphne< she is very ........i dont know the correct word to describe her maybe queer, she helped me so much......you can always rely to her, yeah but sometimes she could be so...........ANNOYING according to her in an annoying way.....she always ask me am i toooooooooot.......??? in her life....... there are so muc men......but none of them knew her...........all i could sa......she's beyond from normal..... you will surely enjoy her company...even the slightest thing can be very funny to her......

My friend >marilyn< oh!!! she has the most incredible life, it's like she picks money on ground (hehehehehe) she is sometimes pain in the ass, but if she's your friend you can trust her in the hardest time of your life(mangutang).......she is very sweet......and most of all she is the richest among my circle of friends (i think.....) for me she's jollibee girl.....for her jollibee is the best.....if you information in the meals of jollibee....just aapproach her.....she knows even the prices of each meal.....she's so amzing in food.......sometimes i wonder why she chose nursing.....

>janice< basically we call her "ate" well becuase shes older than us and sometimes she forgets things No!!! maybe always........but she really can help you academically and as afriend she is very dependable( this is a lie)........for me she is the funniest, because she does things in very odd ways.....we sometimes catch her.....look distant( her distinguishing factor)........i idolize her in preventing aging.......she does the job very welll.......ate janice!!!!!!keep it up........

i gained new friends because of our CP, and most of them are very great like >nadine< >Gleyzel< you can really trust them and they are very cheerful........i have so amny friends that i haven't mentioned and i love them all, they may not notice it,,,,but i do.......

what's with my name??

I don't really know where my name originated, but i do know that my Mom chose it for me. my dad told me that my name was suppose to be Vanessa unfortunately at that time my mom was very dominant. I would be really happy if that is my name....well that's the histroy.....this is just for additional information, if you are interested....

You all know my name is Kerry Joy Rosario and I know you think its a weird to have, i do agree, but theres nothing else i could do if I want to change it. My mom told me my name comae from a name of an american guy I don't know who specifically the guy, however I am thankful for my mom because I never encountered any person with the same nameand I am proud of that.

According to my research the name Kerry is an irish male name(well thats kinda harsh....) means "black haired" (tha is true!!!!). In Ireland it is a breed of small black dairy cattle. I know one person having kerry as his name, but a family name, its John F. Kerry, he ran for presidency last 2004 but he lost and now he is one of the senators in united states of america, and he serves as a district attorney and lieutenant governor of massachusetts. I once read in a baby names book that Kerry means "dark one", and its kinda true, but not wholly. My name, Kerry, orriginally called "Chiarrai" means Ciar's people which also means black, so basically my name is all about darkness, but it doesn't mean that I am a bad person , maybe sometimes.

As a whole I love my name......and i thank my mother for that..............

............................thank you for reading.............................