.......the people you love.....char!!!!!

it is said that no man is an island and indeed it is true.......we cant survive if we dont have anyone to talk to......have you watched the movie castaway by tom hanks??. in that movie he was stranded in an island after the crash of their delivery plane, he was working at FEDEX, and there he was all alone so he decided to have a volleyball as his companion, he made a face on it using his blood and impressively he coped in the place easily, have you imagined yourself like this??? well... imagine the worst.......anyway back to our topic, so all of us needs someone and theres our family, friends, special friend, and boyfriends. when we have an argument to those people in our life we feel... empty, not complete and theres someone saying inside you that i have to talk to him or her and that your day is not satisfying........well...now it is whats happening to me.. i have an enemy that is so important to me, i admit that its all my fault, but i am a kind of person that doesnt speak my emotions, so she was mad at me.....and now......i am here typing this......gathering some courage to talk to her.......wish luck......i wish that she would listen to me.....and that she and i would understand each other........

consequences

everyday we make history and it is done through our actions and in every actions there are consequences that came along with it. neglecting the consequences will lead you to a decision that will surely hurt others or yourself. i myself admit that i sometimes neglect the effects, but as far as im concerned..... i am doing what i feel is right. there are decision that is good and has a bad effect on you, you may see it as negative due to the bad effect it will cause you but if its right go with it!!!! fear is our greatest enemy in life, but having fear does'nt mean that you are weak, accepting fear is a sign that you are brave, you are not afraid of confronting the things you fear most.

as i go through my college life i discovered that i have fear in disappointment and failure and i got a lot of trouble because i never face my fears, however because of my helpful and passionate friends i got through with it and there is someone that helped me so much!! as in so much!!! i think i owe her why now i am still studying nursing, i am not saying she helped financially, she just helped on how to deal with people that i am afraid to.......the weakness is understandable but not facing until the time you die is a big fat lie.... it does seem very hard to do, i do know that we can do everything if we just have hope........

.......................new life...............

yessssss!!!!! the storm is gone!! now.........i feel like i'm floating with the clouds... :) i have nothing important to think of....well....i didn't mean like nothing as in nothing at all......

i'm all about studying right now....because last semester...i could say i wasn't a good student. all i did was go with friends, think of something fun, and eat everyday as in every hour of everyday that made me soooooo fat. i thought, i felt so down because everything is not going the way i wanted, but then with the power of our almighty god and with the help of good friends i realized that evertything was because of me!!!!! my stupidness, my idiotness, and my fear of disappointment motivated my actions that caused all that storm.

now i feel my life is a blank slate, it's like i'm starting from scratch, this is my chance to star anew, change everything and do everything right. i know that there will always be mistakes, but i know that in every dark cloud there's always a silver lining......hahahahaha.........

lastly, ill always remember you can benefit from everything..........

to all who will read this ( if theres anyone...):
think positive.........dont lose hope and life is all about hardships....and god will not give anything that you cant do.......you can do everything, just have HOPE......in every locked door theres always a way to open it........and we all need help.......